Just got myself a hydrometer and pulled my mead. It had a gravity of 1.020 & based on the assumed attenuation of 92% for my yeast my original gravity (which I didn't know I needed) was 1.250. That makes my mead 20% alcohol by volume or 40 proof. Not bad. It's still fermenting too so that will go up with time!

I have had an epiphany about myself. I am a highly jealous person. I'm jealous of you my friends! Jealous of your success,  your seeming happiness and i even find myself jealous of your other friends. You are mine! I get all unhappy and sullen when you are with someone other than me. Even though I am awkward and there are long uncomfortable silences. I try to hide it, bury it deep inside but I suspect you know something is wrong!

Worst of all though ... I can't stand it when you hide things from me under the assumption of protecting me.

I'm not weak! I can stand on my own, hard though it may seem! & I can handle the truth!

Another truth about me ... I'm quite, I won't claw your eyes out but if you scorn me I will plot a terrible revenge. At least that is when I tell myself! & what someone told me. My friend he said is scrappy. You know when you encounter her what she'll do if you fuck with her but me ... he said are unpredictable. I will silently slice your tires or some other dastardly deed. & it's the not knowing that keeps people from getting close I think!